Crossword Trouble

{Excerpt from 17 & Pregnant}

ROB

My eyebrows scrunch together as I stare at the newspaper in front of me, placed squarely on the dining table. The expression on my face alters slightly now and again, but the same emotion is felt all throughout my being.

I’m disgusted.

How is it that people can even promote this… This…

Nonsense!

Why is this even published? I have no clue. I mean, newspapers were once the Saturday sit-down and read while you’re eating waffles, eggs, and bacon and drinking coffee; a wonderful meal made by the wonderful wife.

Well, that was back in the fifties. The news probably wasn’t exactly uplifting…

It’s completely manipulating! The only thing I can truly comprehend here is the confusion and deception plastered all over this page! I should be enjoying my time right now, and instead I’m wracking my brain for a solution, something that I can do to fix this!

Who the hell wrote this thing?!

“Freaking crosswords!” I curse, pushing the newspaper aside in frustration.

My head falls into my hands as I let out a long, heaving sigh. A groan soon follows after that, my back and chest rising and falling with the actions. I shake my head, over and over, so tempted to grab the paper and burn it.

But, as my eyes look over at the recipe for frustration, I can’t help but take it in my hands and try again.

It’s no use!

It had been over fifteen minutes, yet I was only two words closer to solving the puzzle than before.  I really was at the point of burning the frickin’ thing, until a genius thought came into my head.

Ask Olivia!

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CAUGHT!

As I look out the window
My mind wanders
Still
Been a few days
Routine’s out of whack and
Well…
I feel different
Calmer
More in control
Pleasant
I wanna laugh
Life is good!
How about the other window?
What’s there?
Let me see-
Oh!
Oh my goodness!
I didn’t mean…
I had a feeling
This guy was looking
Does he know my stats?

‘Of course not, Hana…’

You’re right
Should I laugh?
I want to
I’ve definitely changed
I don’t feel self conscious
Just cause someone found me gorgeous
It’s flattering
And amusing how he looked away
When?

He was CAUGHT!

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This actually happened to me today, aha! I’m sure you gorgeous people can relate… 😉

~HanaMay~

I LIKE HIM…

{An excerpt from my original story “Love” on Wattpad}

EMELIE

“It was slow today,” Taro said with a laugh as he locked up the front doors of Stars diner.

“Yeah,” I smiled, wiping down some of the tables that he hadn’t touched.

I wasn’t surprised that we had less customers today than we usually did. It was the day before Canadian Thanksgiving. Everyone else that works here had gone somewhere out of Toronto to visit their families. Not that Taro and I didn’t have family. But, his didn’t celebrate Thanksgiving every year, and mine was in the U.S, so we wouldn’t be celebrating until next month.

We were the only ones that had shown up to work today.

And part of me was so happy about that. Even though we’re friends, I’ve liked him for while now. I feel like we have some sort of connection. He’s five years older than me, at 23, but what does that change?

“So…” He started, putting the dishes and utensils into the kitchen.

“So?” I teased.

“What are your plans for tomorrow?”

“Well, I bought some tofu, sweet potatoes, regular potatoes, stuffing, gravy, cranberry sauce and things for pie.”

“Oh, vegetarian,” He said, nodding.

I nodded in response, “I also have a small turkey. My roommate bought it for us to have a nice little feast, but she forgot she already had plans with her family in Waterloo. What about you?”

“I don’t have plans… No one’s joining you?” He asked.

“Nope,” I responded, popping the ‘p’. We were now behind the register, just chatting. It was dark out now. But, it being Toronto, the downtown streets were lit up by the streetlights.

Sighing, I looked out one of the windows and imagined. I imagined that maybe he would lean in and grab my hand with one of his, the other touching my cheek. And then he’d say, “can I kiss you?”

I must’ve sighed again, because I heard him chuckle softly beside me, “you okay, Em?”

“I’m good.”

“Do you mind if I join you tomorrow? For Thanksgiving?”

I looked at him, surprised. I didn’t expect him to ask, since I was usually the one to invite people over. A smile crept onto my face, “yeah, I’d love that.”

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Check me out on Wattpad for more!!

~HanaMay~

 

This…?

What is…

This?

What?

This…

This…feeling

Wait.

Stop.

Did you hear that?

My heart…

It didn’t flutter endlessly like before.

Just a kick, then back to normal.

So, this means what I think it does.

Wow, they’re gone…

Wow!

This feels amazing!

I look and I’m okay.

No more jealousy or longing…

Well

Who knows how long this will last?

Better for now, anyway.

Really, who likes all that?

What’s the point of looking when you won’t get that back?

Well, not in the same.

Is my optimism pure or mocking?

Mocking of the situation

Or you?

I’m not sure…

Damn!

I mean, sorry for caring.

Seriously. I’m wasting feelings on you.

That’s why the flutter is gone…

Where am I going with this?

I’m a different person now.

You noticed, didn’t you?

With some of the pounds goes some of the insecurity…

Does that bother you…? All of you…

You know who you are.

If you’re bold, say it to my face.

Say it like it is.

Tell me…

Your feelings.

And, well

You know who I am.

‘Very Beautiful…’

 

~HanaMay~

Snap!

If only

If only things could

Happen

Just like that

You know?

I snap my fingers

And it’s

Here

Everything

Basics

Love

Life

My dreams

Come true

In an

Instant

Then

I don’t have to try

Anymore

No more

Trial

or

Error

But

Actually

That’s okay

Even if

When I snap

It doesn’t happen

Right

Now

It will

They will

One day

I know it

So

Until then

I’ll keep

Snapping

Waiting

Achieving

 

~HanaMay~

Whoops

Oh

MY

Goodness

You exist?

I forgot…

On my mind

lately?

HeyNon

Fun

Life

Drama

You know

Always on

With me

But

Hey

I forgot

Sorry

But

You forgot

Me

Right?

Or am I wrong?

I know I’m not.

Listen…

I forgot

You forgot

We forgot

But

What I’m not

Is a has-been

I’m a will be

I am

Wait

WordPress…..

I forgot

This

Whoops

I forgot I had this blog. But I’m back.
More poetry to come.

HanaMay

No One’s Perfect

Bicycle ride-bys

They think you’re obsessed

With me

It is flattering

I won’t lie

But the effort

I feel for you

Honestly

Because while your eyes on me

Mine are on HeyNon’s

And

Believe me

I know what that’s like

With his awkward legs in shorts

Yup

An imperfection

I can’t seem to make up my mind

Completely

But

With him

There have been so many signs

I dunno

Maybe we’re meant to be

Yeah

I’m a bit cheesy

But

No one’s perefect

Indecisive?

I know how you feel.

Tell me all about it.

If u dare…

HanaMay